spaz's dream from Sunday night

[A Manda On The Moon]

okies...

so heres what i remember

Kiera and i were in school and we found a notebook and she said that that could be the notebook we use to make the new 'friendship novel'
the friendship novel was a notebook that me and a few friends would write notes to each other in.... kiera didnt because she wasnt one of the people who was in our classes.
anywayz...
i was like ok
and now i actually do have a new notebook that im gonna write notes to her and my friend catherine in.

then i went to my next class and it was my math class from last year... so guess who was there.
JIMMY! -cries-

for you who dont know jimmy.... ::::

okies... theres this guy named... well im gonna call him waldo because... yeah....
i liked him since like october....
and i talked to him like 6 times...
and something happened... and it really hurt....
and now im really sad... i cant forget about him...
and nobody understands.....
certain things make me think off him... like the song that just came on....
god damn it!
why do i keep crying over him? why why why why why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my friends tell me not too.... but i do... they just dont understand....
they dont know that if i hear certain songs i cry because they remind me of him...
they dont know what i feel when i see him in the hall....
THEY DIDNT FUCKING KNOW WHAT IT FELT LIKE TO HAVE TO SIT NEXT TO HIM FOR 90 MINS EVERY DAY KNOWING I COULDNT HAVE HIM!
HOW I FELT WHEN I SEE HIM SMILE...!!!!!!!!!!
THEY DONT KNOW THAT I CANT STOP THINKING OF HIM! THEY DONT KNOW THAT EVERYTHING REMINDS ME OF HIM!
THEY DONT FUCKING KNOW AND THERES NO ONE TO TALK TO. THEY ALL SAY THE SAME FUCKING THING!
NO ONE KNOWS WHAT I WOULD GIVE TO HAVE SOMEONE TO TALK TO SOMETIMES!
I CANT TALK TO MY FAMILY BECAUSE THEY DONT GIVE A SHIT...
MY CATS DONT SPEAK ENGLISH...
MY SIS IS TOO LITTLE ...
MY FRIENDS ARE PROBABLY GETTING ANNOYED WITH THE WHOLE DAMN THING.
THERES NO ONE TO FUCKING TALK TO!
NOBODY CARES...
THIS IS WHY I OBSESS OVER SO MANY FAMOUS ROCK GUYS...! IF I DIDNT THEN I WOULD HAVE NOTHING... ID BE A WALKING HOLLOW SHELL WHO WOULD CHOSE DEATH RATHER THAN HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL SO THAT SHE WOULDNT HAVE TO SEE HIM!
IDK WHATS WRONG BUT I FEEL LIKE IM GONNA EXPLODE... I CANT EVEN BEGIN TO EXPRESS HOW I FEEL.

I FUCKING LOVE HIM AND HE DOESNT GIVE A SHIT! THEY ONLY THING HE MANAGED TO DA WAS MAKE ME CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP AT NIGHT AND BRAKE MY HEART. YET I STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR HIM!
I THINK ABOUT HIM SO MUCH THAT I WENT INTO MY BASEMENT AND BLASTED BAT COUNTRY AND ENDED UP CRYING DURING IT BECAUSE SOMETHING SOMEHOW REMINDED ME OF HIM!
AND WHO THE FUCK CRIES OVER SOME GUY WHILE LISTENING TO BAT COUNTRY OF ALL FUCKING SONGS!!!!
god damn...
*cries*



the italic stuff is about Jimmy..aka waldo
i copied it from a7xuk... so i didnt have to type it again.
anywayz...
he was there and he was playing some video game because we were apperantly allowed to play video games in my dream.
anywayz...
after class i had to go to his house because i needed someone who could watch me for a few hours and so my mom made me go there.

and thats all i remember

but why did he have to be in it?

thats the second weird dream i had in a while...
the other one was from thursday night and i was hanging out with the weasley twins from Harry Potter and i had a crush on George.

it was weird.
:-\

[liv]

awwwwwwwww

im sorry

*gets men in black pen thingy and erases that part of memory*

=]
all better now

[lintu]

i didn't see jimmy at jerkson day on saturday. that's what i'm calling it lol

if i did i wouldn't be typing this right now, i'd be in juvy. hahahahahahha

[A Manda On The Moon]

lol.

yeah.
i wanna hurt him badly.

[lintu]

I JUST WANNA BREAK YOU DOWN SO BADLY

my god i hate that song.

[A Manda On The Moon]

im sorry

[liv]

i hate it too

dont worry

and i could lend you my lacrosse stick for beating him up

[lintu]

[A Manda On The Moon]

-does happy dance-

[liv]

YAY FOR LACROSSE STICKS!!!!